lady doctor

when I sought you out
pregnant with my third
how could I guess
our future's pain

I still feel
I should have known
somehow

should have known
you were just
"one of the guys"
in a skirt

as our ninth month ended
confusion cleared
as I met my sisters
other nurses
with eyes that said
what was in their voice's edge

run
be afraid

but it was too late
I couldn't be afraid
or more afraid

as
my
life
ran
away
in
one
scarlet
instant
I
understood


today
I shower kisses
on my ruined child

live proof of your errors

my rage lives on